Walls

Sometimes i feel so broken and lost inside, sometimes i feel so far away from God. I'v built these walls to stand so tall. I wish God would just tear them down, but He won't do it cos i'm not letting him. But i want Him to tear them down, but i'm just so afraid. I'm afraid of what i'll be like without these walls. i'v had them for so long that i think if they came down i'd be totally a new person. And i'm afraid i'd lose everything i have because of that. I guess i'm just so lost that i don't know who i truly am. And last fall, this winter has just messed me up even more. It's made me build more walls. I'm this MESS! but i have a tingle in me that these walls are starting to crumble. I know it'll take a LONG time, cos there is so much to crumble. and i don't think i'd stand it if they just collapsed. But little by little they will come down. i rely on God to do that.

I wish i could just close my heart like i can close my lips.

I don't have to talk, so why do i have to feel?

If my heart could be silenced it would be.

I wish God could silence all these thoughts, so i could just focus on Him.

There's a storm stirring up in my heart.

He's saying: 'I love YOU, do you love me?'

And i don't know what to say.

'Don't walk away' He's pleading on his knees. 'Don't walk away.'

I hear it in my head, do i feel it in my heart?





I'm standing at the crossroads.
I have to make the decission myself.
It's a hard one, to leave my old life and turn to a new road.
And i'm not promised that it'll be easier on this road.
Infact, i know it'll be harder.
But in the end, i know there will be a prize.
The best prize in the world.
I just have to give up everything i have and choose this road.
What do i do now, what do i do.

  

Walls

The Rocket Summer

The story of my life I can't quite comprehend, don't tell me if you know how it ends.
When everywhere you go feels like a mirror maze and your not sure how your stuck in this place

And you got no where else to go and your lost within your own home.
Your trying so hard to win, you keep trying it's embarrassing.
and how you don't even know, but you know your off the tracks.
and how did you get in here, thinking how did I get in here.

I'll help you break the walls down
I'll help you break the walls down
and bust you out and take you home
believe you and me, you are not alone
I'll help you break the walls down

Does anybody know where February went? I was hoping that by now it would be the end of this.
When you open up a book and read a thousand lines, but you don't really read you just move your eyes

I know this is random but just this morning I saw the sun reflecting off the lawn and window
oh I don't know why but I thought you should know.

And all the weight you carry will disappear and I will willingly embrace you slow you lay your head
so come on home, come on home, come on home...